Glad to be Home

Since coming home from the hospital after the surgery, I've gotten a lot better.

I had to stay in the hospital for 8 long days. Normally, after the surgery, 2 days max would be the stay. Somehow, I got an internal infection, so I had a fever for 7 days. The doctors never found the source. But they still gave me a whole lot of antibiotics. My hospital stay was good. I had my own private room and cable (although the TV was so tiny!). The nurses were nice, except for one. But those effing hospital mattresses - terrible! Since I had a fever of 103, having a rubber coated mattress made me even hotter (no pun intended!). LOL. The doctors wouldn't let me go home until my temperature went down to less than 100.

Another part of it was that my veins are really thin and hard to find. They had to poke me 12 times for the IV during my 8-day stay. They made me cry like a baby. It was awful.

One more thing - having the surgery done is nothing. I didn't feel a thing. But taking out the staples was painful. I could go through another surgery but no staples. Damn. I didn't think it would hurt that much. My mom had to go out of the room because she could not stand seeing me and hearing my pillow covered screams because of the pain. I'm so glad that is over.

I felt so much better being home. I am a lot more comfortable and I am sleeping on my bed. All I have to complain about now are the night sweats. Man. It never occurred to me that I can be so hot and sweaty at night. I want this to be gone. It's keeping me from sleeping. As it is, I barely get sleep. Max is 6 to 7 hours at night. And no naps during the day. I think, I may still be going through withdrawal from stopping taking pain killers. Oh, and I was connected to a morphine pump for 4 days. I called it my joystick. The pain was bearable, but not the fever. I threw up 4 times in one day.

It's been a little over 2 weeks since I got home. And I still have not had the chance to catch up on my DVDs and video games. I still have about 4 weeks of time off. I'm just afraid that it's going to be really hard for me to go back to work then.

My days are usually spent watching TV and playing Mafia Wars on FB. The game is so addicting. I just have to figure out how to be productive the next 4 weeks.

Emo

There are moments in life when you remember the dreams you used to dream, the life you used to live, and the love you used to feel. You think you've moved on. But then you realize what you've been missing all this time, and that it's too late.

Homesick/Home Sick

Sometimes, I still can't help but feel homesick. I miss the times when I can just go out and call the kada to meet up and have coffee. With life here, it's different. Everybody still has a lot to do afterwork. Besides that, iba-iba pa kami ng age and culture. It's just one of those Pinoy things that I love. Yung kahit madaling araw na, isang tawag lang, andyan na ang barkada. I'm really getting older.

Anyway, I have been home sick for two weeks. Effin' Strep Throat (not sure of the spelling) kept me home with the fever and colds. Not to mention painful sleepless nights because of endless coughing.

My surgery's finally scheduled. At least I know when I will be off work. The 2 month recuperation period is sweet. But thinking about not being able to get out of bed for a while makes me think twice. It's not that I have a choice, but if I did, I'd rather not. Duwag talaga ako.

I really have not had much time to blog, much less to do anything else. I've been sleeping at least 10 to 12 hours a day because of my meds. They make me groggy.

Scary times here in the US lately. I can't say it's hitting too close to home, since it's already hit home. My Dad was laid off last week. I love the Philippines and I am glad that outsourcing is helping our economy but this is not good. If the US Unemployment rate is high, it's bad for the US economy, and since US is one of the most powerful countries, I don't think it's good for the rest of the world either. I hope our new president will look into that as well.

I officially understand now how emotional and unpredictable menopausal women are. Isa lang ang masasabi ko, I hate hot flashes. Hay.

Away

It's my 4th Christmas away from the Philippines. And I still feel the same homesickness, the same emptiness pag pasko na. I want to get over it but I may never be able to. Haaaay.

Nakakamiss..

-simbang gabi with family and friends
-bibingka at puto bumbong
-mga nagkacaroling
-mga parol
-mga paputok
-mga reunion
-manghingi ng aginaldo.. Hehe
-mga tiangge sa GH
-mga Tagalog na Xmas songs
-yung Xmas spirit
-ang pasko sa Pilipinas.. Namimiss ko lahat.. Lalo na ang pamilya ko.. Sana next year di na ganito.. Sana next year nasa Pilipinas ako sa pasko.. Haaaaay.. (major homesickness attack!)

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I have only one thing to say...

Life can be really expensive!

back to basics

I just got a new Macbook and I am loving it. =)

Since my old lappie had a couple of really bad viruses, I thought it would be best to upgrade. I wanted a more portable one and sure enough, I got the new aluminum cased Macbook. It's 4.5 pounds compared to my old Compaq 9 pounder.

I am so tired of getting viruses all the time from downloading. And I love the fact that the MAC if protected from them. NO more renewing the Antivirus Subscription every year! Woohoo!

I'm trying to relearn how to use a computer all over again. I got the Iwork software to make sure I have what I need to still complete my duties for the carehome. Hay. There's no escaping that.. that's for sure.

Only two words.. Love it!