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Glad to be Home

2009-03-19T17:13:00.000-07:00

Since coming home from the hospital after the surgery, I've gotten a lot better.

I had to stay in the hospital for 8 long days. Normally, after the surgery, 2 days max would be the stay. Somehow, I got an internal infection, so I had a fever for 7 days. The doctors never found the source. But they still gave me a whole lot of antibiotics. My hospital stay was good. I had my own private room and cable (although the TV was so tiny!). The nurses were nice, except for one. But those effing hospital mattresses - terrible! Since I had a fever of 103, having a rubber coated mattress made me even hotter (no pun intended!). LOL. The doctors wouldn't let me go home until my temperature went down to less than 100.

Another part of it was that my veins are really thin and hard to find. They had to poke me 12 times for the IV during my 8-day stay. They made me cry like a baby. It was awful.

One more thing - having the surgery done is nothing. I didn't feel a thing. But taking out the staples was painful. I could go through another surgery but no staples. Damn. I didn't think it would hurt that much. My mom had to go out of the room because she could not stand seeing me and hearing my pillow covered screams because of the pain. I'm so glad that is over.

I felt so much better being home. I am a lot more comfortable and I am sleeping on my bed. All I have to complain about now are the night sweats. Man. It never occurred to me that I can be so hot and sweaty at night. I want this to be gone. It's keeping me from sleeping. As it is, I barely get sleep. Max is 6 to 7 hours at night. And no naps during the day. I think, I may still be going through withdrawal from stopping taking pain killers. Oh, and I was connected to a morphine pump for 4 days. I called it my joystick. The pain was bearable, but not the fever. I threw up 4 times in one day.

It's been a little over 2 weeks since I got home. And I still have not had the chance to catch up on my DVDs and video games. I still have about 4 weeks of time off. I'm just afraid that it's going to be really hard for me to go back to work then.

My days are usually spent watching TV and playing Mafia Wars on FB. The game is so addicting. I just have to figure out how to be productive the next 4 weeks.

Emo

2009-02-02T02:50:00.000-08:00

There are moments in life when you remember the dreams you used to dream, the life you used to live, and the love you used to feel. You think you've moved on. But then you realize what you've been missing all this time, and that it's too late.

Homesick/Home Sick

2009-01-30T17:17:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I still can't help but feel homesick. I miss the times when I can just go out and call the kada to meet up and have coffee. With life here, it's different. Everybody still has a lot to do afterwork. Besides that, iba-iba pa kami ng age and culture. It's just one of those Pinoy things that I love. Yung kahit madaling araw na, isang tawag lang, andyan na ang barkada. I'm really getting older.

Anyway, I have been home sick for two weeks. Effin' Strep Throat (not sure of the spelling) kept me home with the fever and colds. Not to mention painful sleepless nights because of endless coughing.

My surgery's finally scheduled. At least I know when I will be off work. The 2 month recuperation period is sweet. But thinking about not being able to get out of bed for a while makes me think twice. It's not that I have a choice, but if I did, I'd rather not. Duwag talaga ako.

I really have not had much time to blog, much less to do anything else. I've been sleeping at least 10 to 12 hours a day because of my meds. They make me groggy.

Scary times here in the US lately. I can't say it's hitting too close to home, since it's already hit home. My Dad was laid off last week. I love the Philippines and I am glad that outsourcing is helping our economy but this is not good. If the US Unemployment rate is high, it's bad for the US economy, and since US is one of the most powerful countries, I don't think it's good for the rest of the world either. I hope our new president will look into that as well.

I officially understand now how emotional and unpredictable menopausal women are. Isa lang ang masasabi ko, I hate hot flashes. Hay.

Away

2008-12-23T09:34:00.000-08:00

It's my 4th Christmas away from the Philippines. And I still feel the same homesickness, the same emptiness pag pasko na. I want to get over it but I may never be able to. Haaaay.

Nakakamiss..

2008-12-20T20:23:00.000-08:00

-simbang gabi with family and friends
-bibingka at puto bumbong
-mga nagkacaroling
-mga parol
-mga paputok
-mga reunion
-manghingi ng aginaldo.. Hehe
-mga tiangge sa GH
-mga Tagalog na Xmas songs
-yung Xmas spirit
-ang pasko sa Pilipinas.. Namimiss ko lahat.. Lalo na ang pamilya ko.. Sana next year di na ganito.. Sana next year nasa Pilipinas ako sa pasko.. Haaaaay.. (major homesickness attack!)

...

2008-12-12T17:59:00.000-08:00

I have only one thing to say...

Life can be really expensive!

back to basics

2008-11-29T05:04:00.000-08:00

I just got a new Macbook and I am loving it. =)

Since my old lappie had a couple of really bad viruses, I thought it would be best to upgrade. I wanted a more portable one and sure enough, I got the new aluminum cased Macbook. It's 4.5 pounds compared to my old Compaq 9 pounder.

I am so tired of getting viruses all the time from downloading. And I love the fact that the MAC if protected from them. NO more renewing the Antivirus Subscription every year! Woohoo!

I'm trying to relearn how to use a computer all over again. I got the Iwork software to make sure I have what I need to still complete my duties for the carehome. Hay. There's no escaping that.. that's for sure.

Only two words.. Love it!

Sigh

2008-11-16T12:41:00.000-08:00

Wala lang. As in wala lang. I have nothing to write. My mind is so blank.

Ewan ko ba. Maybe there are times when your brain, like Windows, just needs to freeze and shut down due to data overload. This is definitely one of them for me.

Work has been slow the last couple of weeks. But we all know it's going to be busy next month. It's the end of the year so people will start calling in to fulfill IRS requirements. Hay.

This year is about to come to an end. Ang bilis. It's like life is just passing me by minsan. I don't want to wake up one day and just realize, I missed half my life because I've been so tired and stressed because of work. Nakakamiss lang yung lifestyle sa Pinas. Back there, it's like the time is a lot slower. After work, you still have time to go the mall, have some drinks with friends, or just simple have small talk over coffee. Eh dito? Hay. When you get home, there's still so much that needs to be done.

I'm not complaining though. Considering what the economy is going through right now. I really have no right to complain.

This is my first ever bear market here in the US. Sobrang hirap pala. Everything has gone down. All sorts of investments have crashed. I didn't think that the US can be this much affected. Or maybe, the past bear markets, I just wasn't aware that they were happening.

I'm rambling again. I started this entry with nothing. Now I'm just typing as the thoughts cross my mind.

I got some of the house projects done this weekend. The house is starting to come together more and more. We finally got a couple more chairs for the living room. Sabi nga ni Mama, hindi na masyadong bare yung bahay. I also got the floating shelves installed in the family room. One at a time..

I was bad. I didn't hear mass today. Sorry po.

Ano pa ba? Hmm. My dear laptop crashed a week back. I was able to reconfigure some of the softwares. I still don't know what caused it. Although it's working now, when I plug in the iphone, it still gives me that blue screen and then crashes. So now, I am unable to update my phone. Hay. Bad trip. Another additional expense coming up. From the looks of things, I may need to get a new computer. But this time, I am looking into getting a Mac. I love the iMac. But then, I've been a laptop user for almost 4 years now. I'm not sure I can compromise the portability of a laptop versus the sleek and clean lines of the iMac. Tough decision. hehe..

Hay. Hay. Hay. Wala lang ulit. Nakakatamad. I feel like I can sleep through a whole week. I think my body is adjusting to the medication that I am taking right now. I feel so bloated and heavy lately. Di ko alam kung katamaran lang to. But really. It sucks.

Hay. I am currently starting at the sky. It's nice to have the computer desk beside a window. It's been a while since I just stared at the stars. Ang sarap tumambay.

It's getting pretty chilly lately. So far, we've been down to the low 40s. Ang sarap mag-stay sa kama. hehe. Again.. Katamaran kicking in..

25

2008-10-26T05:29:00.000-07:00

I can still remember a few years back when I turned 18. It's hard to believe that I just turned 25! haha!

I've had a good life. A lot of good and bad experience that's made me who I am. I have been through the highest ups and the lowest lows. And I appreciate everything coz I turned out to be a strong person.

I'm lucky to be given the opportunity to be where I am now. At 24, I was able to realize my biggest dream - to have a home of my own. Although I have no complaints of living with my parents, I love the fact that I have my own space, and for the most part, I have control over my own time. =)

I bought my first car at 21. I can still remember the huge grin on my face when I drove it home. I could not believe it was mine. Now my baby is a little over 3 years old.

This may seem materialistic but I just truly appreciate what I have now. There was a time in my life when we lost everything. We lost our house, our cars, my parents separated.. It was the lowest lows.

I am so thankful that I have my aunt and my lola. They made the best out of what we had left. Without them, who knows where I may be.. Baka drug addict na ko. I may have been a big pain back then but I truly appreciate what they have done for me.

My mom.. A lot of sacrifices. Sobra. I can never be like her. Maybe because I've been hurt before. She's a good mother.

My dad. He's not perfect. As much as I hate to admit it, I am so much like him. I understand him now though. Mahirap din ang pinagdaanan niya.

Kuya.. He's happily married. A father to my cute pamangkin.. Enzo.. He's now a resident physician at SLMC. I know he'll be a good husband, and a great father. I look up to him talaga.

I love my family. I love my life. I have been blessed to meet more people that have also become a part of me.

Roomie - Helen.. Bait sobra! Kahit na makalat ako! hehe.. Peace! =)

Hay. Besides the health issues, all else is fine.

Birthday wish: I hope the economy starts to recover. It's hitting too close to home. WE NEED CHANGE!

GC

2008-10-19T16:45:00.000-07:00

Better late than never. I just saw the latest episode of the new season of Survivor. GC was booted out. He was such a sissy. He just quit. He should have known better what was ahead of him. It's a once in a lifetime opportunity and he just let it go.

Golden Compass: one word.. BITIN!

Truth

2008-10-12T16:57:00.000-07:00

I might have been holding something from my blog the last couple of months.. So I am having surgery on January. My health has not been at it's best this last year. And although I can say the opposite for my life in general, it's a bummer that I have to go through this.

I must have hit the DNA jackpot for this. The diagnosis is still pending. I have to wait until after they stitch me up back whole. Oh well.

I've been out from work so many days it's not funny. My vacation and sick days have been reduced to zero and right now, it's my wallet that is hurting more than I am. If that's even possible.

I'm turning 25 in less than a couple of weeks. I already HINTED to my mom and dad what I want for my birthday. At times I think I may be a little too old for presents, but I'm lucky enough to have very generous parents.. (HINT HINT HINT yet again!) haha..

Next week is our house warming party that we will be celebrating with our office mates. The house blessing will follow soon enough. I have been so busy this weekend trying to repaint the walls and corners that have been scratched when we moved in the furniture. Nakakapagod.

The weather has changed drastically this past week alone. We are done to the 40s at night and it's freezing my butt. hehe.. I need some heat! =)

My cute pamangkin, Enzo.. I wish I can see him in person. It sucks to be so far from the people you love but it's the price I have to pay for a good life. In God's time.. =)

g'bye Warrick!

2008-10-09T18:19:00.000-07:00

I can't believe they killed Warrick's character in CSI Las Vegas. It's bad enough that Grissom's going to be replaced. No offense to Lawrence Fishburn, but I love the cast as it is. Haay. Oh well.

Welcome Reuben!

2008-09-08T16:37:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the world, Lorenzo Reuben Ong So.. Sino kamukha? hehe..

Wii Fit

2008-08-28T16:36:00.000-07:00

It's been 2 weeks since I got my Wii Fit. I love it. Although I look like a goofball when I play. It's just so much fun.

I've lost 3 pounds in less than a week. I guess it's another way for me to lose weight. But at least I am having fun this way. I just need to be consistent. hehehe..

Sigh

2008-08-28T09:40:00.000-07:00

I really have nothing to write.. My mind is just blank.. Pahinga.. Much needed rest. I can't believ I slept for 13 hours straight. I must have really needed it. I guess with all the studying and training I've gone through the last month and a half, my brain just needed a quick break. After all, we're going live on Tuesday. Thank God for the long weekend. Although this will mean a really busy Tuesday. Pero ok na din. *sigh*

Alone

2008-08-17T17:59:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, it's just nice to be alone. When you have nothing much to worry about and you actually have the time to realize how you really feel. It's been a while.

I have just been so busy lately, I've forgotten how thankful I am to be where I am. I can't help but be homesick every once in a while but still, at the end of the day, I know that God wants me to be where I am for a reason. We lose track of it sometimes, but that's what makes us human.

Just being alone for a good number of hours got me contemplating. As I was watering the backyard, I realized how far I've gone. My life's plans are actually starting to fall into place. I know that it would not be possible for me to do this all by myself, but I know, I gave it my best effort.

My biggest achievement so far? My house. Well, it's not all mine, but it's mine and Helen's. OURS. And I love it. As I write this, I am actually in the tub taking a long relaxing bath, to get ready for my workweek ahead. Kaya ko 'to!

I just remembered the toughest days of my life. There's just so many things that happened since then, good and bad. But here we are, still standing.

Lately, I am faced again with another challenge. I know I will get over this. But it's going to be a rough road. God has made me a strong person, and I know, I will succeed.

Perhaps, realizing that I am weak, actually made me a stronger person. I matured. After all, I am almost a fourth of a century old in a couple of months time. And I didn't have an easy life. I must admit that I had a lot of bitterness as a child. And until now, there are still things that I have not come to terms with. But I'll get there in time.

It's been 2 months since I moved out. I miss going home to my mom, and messing with my bro everyday. But this too has helped me become more independent. Masaya na malungkot. Especially when you go home at the end of the day, tapos minsan mag-isa ka. You just miss them. Masasanay din ako.

There are still things in life that I want to achieve. I don't know what is ahead of me but I plan to make the best out of what I have. I realized, I do not need to be great to make a difference. I don't want to be remembered for the things that I have done, but for the acts that I have committed that changed people's lives, or at least touched them. I now know, I use my heart more than my mind most of the time, And it has lead me to great lengths. It's gotten me to where I am now. And I am not going to stop. Everything that I have been through made me who I am. Happy na ko.

Being alone has gotten me to count my blessings, to be thankful. And I am. Salamat po.

Buhay-buhay

2008-08-12T18:21:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, life faces you in an unfamiliar situation where you won't know which steps to take. All you can do is hang on, be strong, and hope that God will not let you down. Nothing worth fighting for is easy. I will succeed!

Wala lang

2008-08-05T16:40:00.000-07:00

And I really mean wala lang.

It's just one of those days when you feel like writing, but you can't gather your thoughts to make some sense out of them so.. Wala lang..

I know I am not bored. Heck, I have so much stuff that needs to be done. But here I am, slacking away. hehe..

Just a couple of nights ago, a friend and I were talking about future plans. Ako? Hmmm.. I have plans. I even had timelines with what I intend on achieving based on how old I am. But I realized now, life is not just about planning. It's the execution that counts. Di dahil may narating ka eh, yun na yun. You have to reach your goals by doing it yourself, not because of the help of others. Although it doesn't hurt din.

I'm not sure if I'm making sense here. I guess I am just trying to figure out where my life is leading. Hay. Inaantok na ko. I'm just really tired. I take that back, more like brain-drained.

The past month has been hectic. I'm still in training but man, I feel like I am not fully ready to be on my own just yet. But I have no choice at this time. No more mentors on Monday. As one of my cousins quoted me before, "Nothing worth fighting for is easy."

Oh well. Wala lang pa din. It's all I can say when you exhale at the end of the day and you realize, you need a day off.. Haay..

Hataw Na!

2008-08-02T15:21:00.000-07:00

Since I spent the day at home for most of the day, I pretty much watched TV the whole time. First time ko mapanood ang Hataw Na.. hehe.. It's the jologs part of me that is stilla big fan of Pinoy movies. It's just relaxing for me to watch. Siguro kasi di na kailangan i-translate ng utak ko yung pinapanood ko. hehe..

Kidding aside, masarap talaga manood ng Tagalog movies, be it old or new. That's probably what I am going to buy when I get the chance to go back sa Pinas. Maraming DVD. Syempre hindi pirated.. Just to collect.. Wala lang..

I cooked my specialty, Bicol Express today. I had to go out to get the Thai Chilli Peppers (in short, siling Labuyo) sa Korean Market kanina, but oh so worth it. Kaya ako lalong tumataba eh. I actually have the time to cook now. I hate the clean up part pero oks na rin. At least I get to eat Filipino food. Namimiss ko lang talaga ang Pinas. Haaay.

Oh, and I bought the movies Caregiver and When Love Begins sa Ebay. It cost me $20 each.. Tag-hirap na naman.. I already saw Caregiver online.. But still, masaya manood ng Tagalog. haha.. Not to mention that the family business is operating carehomes, I can relate to the story.

I just realized, di na related sa title ang entry ko. Nonetheless.. Ok lang.. Wala lang talaga akong magawa! hehe.. Hataw na.. Hataw at galaw.. Hataw na.. wehehehe.. Last song syndrome..

Pagod

2008-07-26T20:04:00.000-07:00

I've been productive today.. haha.. One of the not so many Saturdays where I slave for the house. Sabi nga ni Mama, coz it's mine kaya matiyaga ako kahit sobrang nakakapagod..

I started my day with installing new bathroom fixtures for the guest bathroom. It took me quite a while to take off the old ones and repair the holes in the wall that were left. I'm really becoming an expert in using the drill now. Thank God for power tools. Kundi, mas lalong tumagal yung araw ko.

After that, I had to clean up the backyard. Even though we have a gardener who mowes the lawn every week and trims the plans, I still have to clean it up and do the detail work. I was out in the sun for a good couple of hours I must have just gulped a whole bottle of G2 right after.

Then Directv came. Thank you Mama for sponsoring my TFC. hehe.. It's nice to have access to the news and movies again. Iba pa rin ang kahit man lang konti, may balita ka about your home country..

And since I wanted to clear up the front door area of the house, I ended up buying a hose reel. I didn't think it would take so much energy to get the house reeled up in there. And the heat was killing me even more by that time. My gulay! I think I lost 5 pounds just doing that.

One great thing after all the work though. I got a new Wii game, Order Up. It's close to Cooking Mama but it's so much better! At least you have a long term goal in this game. You open up your new resto, you hire sous chefs, buy spices, wash dishes, eliminate rats, and cook. hehe.. Your goal is to make your resto become a 5-star bistro. I spent a little over 2 hours playing the game even though my hand is now hurting.. Masaya pa rin.. hehe..

Now I'm here, blogging away.. Ala lang magawa. I'm not yet sleepy coz I really slept in yesterday. I had a good 10-hour sleep. I love Saturdays talaga.

I have more stuff to do tomorrow. Besides going to church, I will be at my parents' carehome tomorrow working on the paperwork. Haay. Oh well. Di bale, sulit naman!

Breaktime

2008-07-18T20:26:00.000-07:00

Family bonding moments this weekend.. Since Matthew finished Middle School, our parents decided we needed at least an overnight, out of town trip.. And since this is a last moment effort, syempre, we ended up deciding that we're going to San Fo again.. hehe..

At least this time, we're actually going there to see the sights and enjoy.. Plus pag kasama parents, di magastos..

I was lucky to be able to reserve a room at the Doubletree Hotel. I just did it last Tuesday so I was really lucky. The prices were reasonable and we were able to secure 2 rooms. At least di kami mag-aagawan sa banyo.

The house is finally clean and organized. The furnitures are not yet complete. I was going to try and upload some pics but I didn't have time. So next weekend na lang siguro. Since my cousin and friends are not going to be over, it's going to be a weekend dedicated to the house. It's very much needed and I really want to rest. Training's been a little crazy. Pero it's really interesting. I just had to drop everything I knew about the company and re-learn all the new stuff. At least my brain isn't dead. Medyo umaandar pa naman. It just needed a warm-up. =)

Sometimes, life can really wake you up out of the blue. You find out some things that you so were not expecting. I guess life is still full of surprises even though I thought that I had it figured out.

Pics of the trip and the house are coming soon.. Promise na ito.. I need to clear out my camera and phone anyway. hehe..

Back to work now..

Time Out

2008-07-06T18:12:00.000-07:00

I've been sooo busy the last couple of weeks that I haven't had time to post anything on my site. Hopefully, this would all change in a few weeks time.

The house is coming together nicely. We have our home phone, DSL, and just yesterday, DirecTV. At least I am connected to the world again.

I will post the pics soon, I promise. hehe.. We just have the basics for now. But the house is functioning as it should be. There's still a lot of work ahead of us but it's worth every bit of effort. Now, I've realized what my mom told me before, "Pag bahay mo na, mas may malasakit, and mas may tiyaga.."

I used to always have a form of a mess in my room before. But now, since I am paying for everything, mas OC na ko. Wahaha!

The past 3 weeks of living in my house has been fun. It's worth every penny. Special thanks to my mom for her continued support. hehe. At least I don't have to worry about the yard since she's paying a gardener for me. Whew! Ang init pa naman dito.. I swear I've gotten like 2 shades darker with my skin complexion because of being out in the sun a lot. Lalo na pag kailangan diligan yung mga halaman. But it's ok. It's kinda therapeutic din. After a fast-paced day, as soon as I get the car parked in the garage, I water the plants. And it's very relaxing. I never thought I'd find solace in the garden. Ever! haha!

As for work, I'm off to a new team. New training starts tomorrow. And I can't wait. At least di na mabuburo yung utak ko. I get to learn something new again. Now I know I made the right choice.

Health-wise, not really doing very well lately. My left leg was swollen for over two weeks. I went to the doctor and got an ultrasound but they found nothing. They were thinking that it could be a blood clot but nothing showed up. I have to go back to the Doctor this Tuesday though.. Another ultrasound. I hope it's nothing serious. Haay. Stress!

I've got tons of pics in my camera. I promise to update my site soon. Just taking a short time out.

Bittersweet

2008-06-19T05:16:00.000-07:00

I went to my parents' house last night to bring the late Father's Day presents for my dad. We got him a new Magellan GPS with a case and a Sansa mp3 player. He also got a gift card for Macy's from Matthew and Kuya and a Best Buy GC from Helen.

It was nice to be back. Even though it was just for an hour. It was getting late and I had to go to work today so we really weren't able to stay for long. It was nice to be able to mess with Matthew again.

My mom has already transformed my ex-room. It looks so much different. hehe. Galing talaga ng mommy ko! =)

When it was time to leave, I can't help but feel sad. As I saw my family walking us out to the car, I saw sadness in my mom's eyes. Nakakalungkot talaga. But then again, I knew she was happy for me. I'm learning to become more and more independent. Although, I admit that I still need her help for the most part.. hehe.. Especially with the yardwork..

My mom's been at the house a lot lately. We gave her a set of keys so she can watch the gardener trim that plants and mow the lawn. I love how the house looks so far. I promise, pics will come soon. hehe.. Been a little busy with organizing the inside, I really haven't had much time to do anything else. Sandali na lang.. =)

All moved in..

2008-06-17T05:47:00.000-07:00

Finally, we're moved in to the house. It took a lot of gas and energy to bring our stuff over. The house is still a mess but we're slowly getting there. Since the painting is done. I was able to put up all the vents and new blinds. Expensive but the house is looking more like a home bit by bit.

We also bought a brand new set of washer and dryer. Expensive but it was worth it. But they're new so we get the warranty as well.

I finally got the loft/office organized. We still need to get a book shelf so we can unpack all our books. But we've just been too tired this weekend.

Helen was able to clean up the kitchen. The fridge needed it. Hopefully, we get to organize the kitchen tonight so we can finally clear up the family room. A lot of work still ahead of us for now. But it's all worth it. =)

That was good..

2008-06-12T12:08:00.000-07:00

Man.. I haven't had a professional massage in a while. Last one was back in September when I was in the Philippines. It's a good thing we can take a few moments off from work and have a short massage. My shoulders and my neck were killing me. I have knots all over my back. And I am just so glad I was able to get a massage a few minutes ago before my big move tonight.

Painting went really well. The house looks sooo much better with the new colors. Pictures are coming up soon. We still need to get new blinds and more of the accent furnitures. More work to come..

Happy

2008-06-09T04:23:00.000-07:00

I passed! I am sooo glad it's over! Now I can focus on moving.

We painted the whole interior of the house this weekend. And I am just exhausted. But it's all worth it. The big move is next week. More work. More fun. hehe.. Love it!

Nerves

2008-06-04T12:22:00.000-07:00

My nerves are getting the best of me. I'm so nervous about the test tomorrow. I studied hard. I know it's not my best, but I did pretty good. Haaay. Stressful!

HK

2008-06-04T05:23:00.000-07:00

This season of Hell's Kitchen has just been crazy. Matt so deserved to get kicked off. He had a really bad attitude and he is full of stupid excuses. How dare he say to Chef Ramsey, "You probably don't understand what Migraines are like."

I want Christina or Corey to win. Jen and Bobby are both too arrogant. Petroza is a really good cook but he's such a mess in the kitchen. This is a good season of HK as well. Much better than last season. There's only 5 chefs left. I wonder who will win.

Saan Nga Ba?

2008-05-30T18:29:00.000-07:00

Damn. Everywhere I have asked so far, the Wii Fit is out of stock. Ebay has them but I am not willing to pay twice the regular price. I can wait. I wish they would release the second shipment of the game. I want one bad!

Blah

2008-05-27T10:51:00.000-07:00

I've been trying to study since I came in this morning. I got through 2 of the open book exams and yet I still feel that I am not fully awake yet. I've drank about a gallon of water and almost a liter of soda and yet, here I am.

I can't wait for all this to be over. Although this is technically free time for me here at work, I can't help but feel bored at times. I try to avoid logging in to Multiply and Friendster but it seems like this is the only time I see myself paying attention. I know, bad ako! Waaah!

My exam is scheduled on the 5th of June. I have a few days over a week to understand everything. I want to pass this, bad!

Today is Matthew's grad from middle school. High school na ang kapatid ko. I can't believe it. When I first came here, he was still short and chubby. Now he's tall and gangly like my Kuya Jay. Pareho na silang matangkad sa kin. hehe.. And the sad part of it too, ako pa yung tabain sa pamilya namin. Why can't the boys have that gene instead?!? hehe..

During the 3-day weekend, I've moved some of my stuff to the house already. My room felt like it's getting smaller everyday because of all the things we're buying for the house. I can't wait for the painting and cleaning to be done para makalipat na ako. My room is messed up. Hay.

I just got a new pair of sunglasses. Another one of my life's frustrations. hehe. Since I was in college, all I wanted was a pair of Oakley sunglasses. Now I have both my prescriptions and sunglasses from this brand. I love them. Bit by bit, I am able to fulfill all my dreams. Next step, a Beamer perhaps?? Dream on, Ria.. hahaha.. Too big a leap from Oakleys.. hehe. But it's worth a shot. I'll never know until I try. *fingers crossed*

A lot of finales have to come to pass this month. David Cook rocks! I wish that his first album will come out soon. I'm sure I'm buying it. hehe.

Helen's in New York right now. She's out on vacation with her mom there. Hay. I wish I can be there too. I am just so bored right now.

More to come. I'll find some things that are more interesting to post next time. Sobrang tinatamad lang talaga akong mag-aral. But I promise to do good. God help me.

Another Set of Upsets

2008-05-24T16:06:00.000-07:00

I just saw the finale of CSI Las Vegas. Why did they kill Warrick?!?!?! First Sarah.. Now Warrick..

Even Smallville.. Now Lana and Lex's characters are no longer regulars. How the heck will they pull that off? Plus the original producers of the show quit. Waaah! What will happen to my all time fave shows?

Finally

2008-05-21T09:34:00.000-07:00

Escrow is closed. The house is officially ours. We have the keys! Excited na kami.. hehe!

Jumpstart

2008-05-20T05:25:00.000-07:00

I need a jumpstart. Man, I am so bored right now, trying to go through the book I need to understand before I take the test. Waaah! Nakakaantok..

Because I am taking the test, we're not moving in the house for at least a month or so from now. Oh well. But it's ours anyway. We got some great furnitures over the weekend. Although we still need a lot more, majority is already taken cared of.

Back to reading na ulit.. Haaay..

Official

2008-05-19T18:10:00.000-07:00

I officially start studying for the NASD Series 63 tomorrow. Even though I am not yet scheduled for my test, I know it's going to be in a week or two from now. It just feels great to be off the phones for a little while.

We just bought furnitures for the house today. I need to call SMUD, PG&E and the water company so we can switch all the utilities starting on Wednesday. Finally.

We just can't wait to see the end result of all the painting and cleaning that we're going to be doing. It's a lot of work but it's well worth it. I love the couch that we got. Eksayted na ko.. hehe.. Soon enough..

Finale

2008-05-16T18:06:00.000-07:00

A lot of finales are coming up. Some have already been aired. One of Survivor's best seasons is over. Amanda didn't win but I am still happy for her as she ended up with Ozzy anyway. She found love.. Awww..

Smallville just ended their 7th season. Gawd! I never thought in a million years that this show would ever make me cry. But the 20th episode surely did. I felt Clark's pain when he was watching the video clip Lana left him. What do you do from there? Haay. I can't wait for season 8 to start. Although news have spread that Lex and Lana will no longer be regular this coming season. It's still interesting though.

American Idol's is coming up next week too. David versus David. I wonder who will win. Archuleta has the voice, but Cook is the whole package. Talent and looks combined into one. Hehe.. Go David Cook! I like Archuleta too.. But I just think that David Cook deserves it more. He's been consistent throughout the competition. He can just blow you away with his very own arrangements. Can't wait for his performances this Tuesday.

Oh Boy!

2008-05-16T15:20:00.000-07:00

"It's a boy! :)" - Kuya Jay

Congrats Kuya Jay and Ate Mitchie. We're so happy for you. Ingat kayo.

Aaaww..

2008-05-11T17:02:00.000-07:00

I can deny it all I want, but I am a hopeless romantic. A sucker for those moments that are truly memorable and unforgetable.

One of the most romantic final tribal councils in Survivor just aired. I sincerely believe what Ozzy has for Amanda. Haaay.

Buhay

2008-05-10T18:46:00.000-07:00

Life as we call it, changes from day to day. While my family and I are having our early celebration of Mother's Day at one of our favorite restos, I came to a realization that life has changed me.

Having the best cellphone, a new car, money for gimmicks are no longer my priorities. Coming from the text capital of the world, having a cellphone that is the newest model is a big thing. But now, everything just has to serve its purpose. I have a cellphone because I need it to get for calls and texts, the car is for getting to work, the money is for the monthly bills.

I am turning 25 this year. Wow. A quarter of a century old. I still can't believe where I am now. I never thought I'd end up here in the US. But I'm here. And I've done my part to deserve what I have now. All thanks to God and to my family.

I realized, I am no longer bitter for being so far away from the home I grew up in. I have accepted that this is where I belong. It's nice to find home again. It's been a while.

I was also able to spend a good few minutes with my family. Just talking. There was a short black out on our block and we were all in my parents room. It's just nice sometimes.

Escrow is closing exactly a week from now. We will get the keys to our own house. My new home. Ang sarap ng feeling. I know it's a big responsibility but I know that it's well worth it. We're officially going to be homeowners.

Life has taught me a lot of good lessons. During the lowest point in my life, I realized that my family will always be there. That no matter what, they are thinking about my well being. Minsan lang, mahirap ipaintindi sa kanila that the best may not be what makes people happy. Like me. Pero we'll see. Hopefully, someday, I can show my parents that even though I am not the daughter that they want me to be, that I can still be successful with the path I have chosen to take. That they will be proud of me, someday.

I Love Survivor!

2008-05-01T16:02:00.000-07:00

The best season ever! Love it!

Konti

2008-04-27T11:47:00.000-07:00

Since I started out with a title before I even compiled my thoughts on this post.. How do you know when something is "konti"? hehe.. Is it when something you want is not enough?

Wala lang. I was just thinking. A few more weeks and we get to move in the house. Malapit na. Super exciting. We've been planning and looking for furnitures that will fit our personalities. Mahirap din pala. You want the perfect ones. Medyo mahirap lang coz we have to watch our spending. With all the closing costs, daming gastos. Pero exciting pa rin.

So close I can almost taste it. I still have not had the time to take new pictures of the house. The pics I posted are from the realtor. Pero once we get the keys, that would be the first thing I am doing. We also get to paint. We're still thinking about the color we want to paint each room. Haay.

At least one thing is over. Tax season! Whoohoo! Hopefully, I get to schedule my next exam soon.

Out of impulse, me and my bro decided to buy another guitar for the GH3. It's very addicting. Hehe. I'm still undecided if I want RockBand. Mario Kart for the Wii just came out today. I'm still contemplating if I'm getting it or not. I sold 3 of my games kasi boring. I kept my faves. So I really don't want to buy one that I'm not really sure that I like. Hay.

Addictions

2008-04-24T16:47:00.000-07:00

This has been the best season of Survivor so far! The tenth episode was the best! Ozzy should have known better what was coming.. Too bad I missed today's episode. But I'm pretty sure I'll be able to catch up on it tomorrow. Cerie deserves to win. She truly outwitted everybody else in the team. She's been calling the shots since the beginning. She may not be the strongest physical player, but she's smart! But as Jeff said, you never know. The game is very unpredictable!

So many great shows are on lately. Another one is American Idol! I love the contestants this season! David Cook is the best! He is such a versatile singer. I love his version of "Always Be My Baby" and "Music of the Night". It just proves that he is very talented.

Almost everyday, I have a reason to turn on my TV as soon as I get home. It doesn't end there. Hell's Kitchen is also on. I still wonder who is the most talented. I am still unsure at this time.

So many shows to watch. So little time.

eksayted

2008-04-24T16:17:00.000-07:00

I can't help but feel happy and sad to move out and start on my own.. Happy kasi wala ng curfew! hehe.. Sad coz I'm not going to see my family everyday anymore.. But it's ok. I know I will get used to it. Kaya ko 'to!

We're moving in by the first week of June. I wonder how it would feel the first week, but I guess I should just cherish the last days I am spending here at my parents' home. Haaay.

This is another chapter of my life that is about to unfold. I am terrified yet excited at the same time. Good luck na lang sa amin!

Home

2008-04-18T19:30:00.000-07:00

Finally, this may be the beginning of my happily ever after. A home to call my own. The product of our OTs during tax season, the Saturday workdays, the sidelines.. Sa wakas!

Additional pics to be posted once we get the keys. (30 days or so from now..) Escrow just started and I just can't wait.

Although I may be leaving my parents' house, I just can't help but feel excited. It's a big responsibility and I know that Helen and I will have to sacrifice some of the luxuries we have now (That would be my Wii Games).. I know it's all worth it.. Haay..

3 bedroom, a loft, 2 and a half baths, family room, living room, dining room, a kitchen that may need a little extra TLC, and a 2-car garage.. More than enough room for the both of us but we just fell in love with the house.. Love it!

The fun part of shopping for furniture and appliances has begun. Although my bank accounts are complaining at this time, masaya pa rin ako! hehe.. Haay.. It's been a long wait.. But we're almost there..

Acceptance

2008-04-17T05:49:00.000-07:00

I guess this is what everybody yearns for. But right now, this word means a lot more to me. I am waiting for a phone call that can change my life.

This is just plain torture. Especially since I've been stuck home for the past 2 days. Been home sick coz of my allergies. I look like I've been punched. My eyes are all swollen..

Konting antay na lang.. Low EQ major attack ito!

Worth

2008-04-11T16:54:00.000-07:00

What makes life worth living?

Sometimes, when I am so busy I barely have time to breathe, it makes me think if life here is worth the loneliness of being away from home. But then again, I realize, this isn't forever.

I never thought I'd end up here in the US. Who new? After graduation, I had no definite plans. I was just enjoying the fact that I don't have to worry about homework anymore. Then my petition came. My mom said to give it a year. A few months here and I changed my mind. I decided to stay. As selfish as it may seem, at times, the material things and all my physiological needs met, I stayed.

The question is, do I love life here? It's totally different from life back in the Philippines. We had at least a maid, someone who irons our clothes, etc. Nothing to worry about once you get home from work. That's why the days feel longer. You have so much time left to do whatever you want. Madaling gumimick. Pa-coffee-coffee lang. Dito, coffee is a necessity to keep your body going through the work and the chores you have to do.

I'm not saying I don't love life here. I wouldn't have stayed if I didn't. I'm just saying, it's different. Nakakamiss lang maging tamad minsan. When you don't have to worry about anything else but what you're going to wear to bed. Haaay.

But when you look at the general picture. Life here opened the door for me to better opportunities. I am young and I know my worth. I know my skills and my capabilities as long as I am kept motivated. Lalo na pagdating sa retirement. I mean, in the Philippines, it takes you your whole lifetime to build 1 million pesos for your retirement. But here, 3 years or so? The future looked brighter for me here.

I guess, all in all. This is where I was meant to be. I have every reason to be thankful for the life that I have. My family and I have been through the worse, but we're still here, standing tall and proud. And our faith in God was tested, but we are still firm believers. He has helped us through the toughest times. That's how I found out what family really meant. And who really loves you for who you are. I am thankful.

I have started a career here. It may not be the field I dreamt of when I was a kid. But as far as I know, I'm doing pretty good.

A long time dream is soon to become reality. It may have taken a lot longer than a month, but it's worth waiting for. I know, malapit na. I believe. Konting tiis na lang.

Rock On!

2008-03-29T17:45:00.000-07:00

Finally.. Rock band is coming out on Wii on June! And it doesn't stop there, the Guitar Hero Aerosmith is also coming out the same month! Woohoo!

Unfortunately for me, my Wii money is going to pay for a stupid ticket I got in SF.. It's effin' $381 for a non-moving violation.. Tsk tsk..

Random

2008-03-25T16:52:00.000-07:00

Still have not had the chance to post the pics from Jade's Sac Visit.

Been so busy during the Holy Week. Tapos this week ulit. Haaay.

Was sick yesterday, getting down with a cold coz of the weather change.

Wii needs a repair. The picture does not want to stay in the middle.

Been addicted to Survivor. Love this season! The best! Dami lang umaalis.

Got so many new dvds. Ang dami ko ng kailangan panoorin.

Going to SF this weekend. Just coz. Trip to the wharf again. Planning to go back to Gerry's. Their sisig is just the bomb! Be it here or sa Pinas! Love it!

Been having trouble sleeping lately. I have no clue why.

Watching American Idol. Glad to see Ramiele is still in the competition. I pray for her.

Been so addicted to the Guitar Hero. I'm about to beat the Medium difficulty. I wish I had more time to play it though. I have quite a few games already.

Had Pinoy style spaghetti for dinner. Parang Jollibee! hehe. Kulang na lang Chicken Joy!

Been busy reading articles from peyups.com.. Love that site. Daming magagaling magsulat.

Wala na ko maisip. Sa uulitin!

Life

2008-03-03T15:30:00.000-08:00

I guess sometimes you just have to give up. No matter how hard you work, how much effort you put into things, it's just not meant to be. At times, I think about if life is worth it. Minsan nakakadepress lang. But I always try to remind myself that I made it this far. And God must have better plans. Nakakapagod lang minsan.

At least I only need to work for 3 days this week. I will be off starting Thursday. It's a much needed break and I just can't wait to have some worry free days again.

EDSA

2008-02-26T08:06:00.000-08:00

EDSA's spirit is no longer how it was in 1986. It's the country's easy way out. I voted for GMA in the 2004 elections but we are all proven wrong because of the undending scams that are now coming forth. She was our choice not because we all believed in what she stood for, but at that point in time, I thought that she was the best among the rest of the candidates. Right now, I ask myself if that decision was right. But really, there was a very limited set of options.

Now, if people come to EDSA to once again, remove a president, I don't think our current VP is good enough either. I cannot question his integrity but the mere fact that he is silent, doing nothing, with all these issues arising tell me that he is not a good leader. I believe, that what the country needs right now is new blood. Someone who will stand up for the Filipino people and puts service before any personal agendas.

EDSA back in 1986, was pure, and all by and for the people. Now, the politicians are acting on their own personal interests. We have lost the true spirit of EDSA. I honestly do not know what the country can do right now. Another presidency that ends prematurely cannot improve our economy. But keeping GMA as president may not be the best option either.

Ninoy died for our country. But with all that's happened, the Filipinos make his death useless.

Back when I was still in college, I needed to do some research. So I went to the Department of Trade and Industry for some resources. But when I needed to photocopy some documents, instead of sending me to the cashier, the person behind the machine said, "Bigyan niyo na lang kami ng pang-yosi."

I confess that instead of going to the cashier, I ended up giving the man a P10 bill for a few copies. I should not have. This is where it all starts. I will never forget this instance in my life because it made me feel like I contributed to the corruption of our country. It's just so sad to think that even the lowest positions in the government can be as corrupt as those who are in the higher positions. If this is happening here, what makes the ZTE scandal impossible when the people involved are a lot smarter than most of us?

I believe in the Filipino People. I know we can be the best as long as we keep our integrity in tact. We need to keep our faith and trust amongst each other but we cannot break them as well. If we are trusted, we have to treasure that trust. But how many of us really do?

The smartest, the most talented Filipinos are no longer in the Philippines. They have lost hope and fled to other countries where their potential can be maximized without jeopardizing their values. I wish Filipinos cared more for the country.

I love the Philippines. I would love to go back if only I can make the same amount I am making here back home. But honestly, I do not trust the system. It has been corrupted for too long and our chances of bouncing back is so close to none at this time.

It's been 22 years since EDSA 1. But the Philippines is now in a deeper hole than where we were back in 1986. We need a new leader. The country is crying out for one. The question now is, can there still be someone from our country who can lead the people to the right direction?

Delayed News

2008-02-22T18:22:00.000-08:00

Some things are just worth waiting for.. But my low EQ is always my enemy. It gives me pain to wait. Haaay.

A lot of new things will be coming up soon. Some of it I am not allowed to talk about just yet. It's delayed but it's coming. Sorry.

A friend from college is coming over from Maryland. We're in for some golf, wine tasting, laser tag, a lot of eating and some shopping. It's a long awaited break. Thank God I was given a few days off considering it's tax season. 2 months na lang!

My bro and my sis-in-law are now expecting. Finally, it's been a while since we had a baby in the family. Excited na kaming lahat. My mom can't wait to shop. When we find out what the sex is, I'm pretty sure my mom will be the first one to get something for the baby. I will be the next in line to shop! haha. Lola na mom ko! wehehe.. My grandma will be a great grandma.. Wow.. 4 gens na.. Ingat lagi Kuya and Ate Mitchie. Miss you both!

I just filed my taxes a few days ago. At least I'm getting a good amount of refund from my taxes. Hopefully next year, I will be getting better deductions. Hay. Right now, I still have credit cards (mind the 'S') to worry about. hehe.. I was bad! I promise not to do it again though.

Oh well. Konting tiis na lang. The wait will soon be over. This will be a good year. I just know it!

Time Off?

2008-02-18T16:29:00.000-08:00

At times, I catch myself asking why I call a day off as such when I actually get more tired because of all the chores and errands I need to run when I am not at work. Wehehe, puro reklamo na naman ito. Although I just had a 3-day weekend, parang kulang pa rin! I just can't wait for that 6 day break I will get on March 6 to 11. It's badly needed.

I just got a haircut earlier this afternoon. Ang haba na kasi ng buhok ko eh. The last time I got my haircut was when I went back to the Philippines for my bro's wedding. That was around the last week of August. Super haba na ng hair ko. But now, it's back to it's shoulder-length self.

I've been so addicted to the guitar hero lately. I've finished the easy category and have moved on to the medium difficulty. Grabe, feeling ko lapit na ko magka-arthritis pero sige pa rin! hehe. Wishing to become an expert so eto, practice to the max!!

I also got my taxes done last night. Finally! I've been so busy. Usually, when I get my 1099s and my w-2, I am all ready. But this year's totally different. Thanks to the 3-day weekend, haay. Sana dumating na rin yung tax rebate. hehe. Kailangan ko ng pera! haha!

My laundry basket is full again. Eto ang hirap sa winter, we use so much clothes, parang di nauubos yung damit kahit laba ka ng laba. Buti na lang it's starting to get warmer. We're now hittin' the 60's again. Whew! But I still love winter. And I still hate summer! Sobra kasing init!

Back to work tomorrow. Hopefully I don't have to come in on Saturday. hehe. Tinatamad na talaga ako mag-OT. The paycheck keeps me motivated but I would love to get a raise. hehe..

Going to bed for now. I have a long week ahead of me. Sana may time off ulet. =)

Need

2008-02-07T11:59:00.000-08:00

It's my monthly day off again. I was finally able to finish up my laundry and tidy up my room. Sweet!

It's been a while since I last posted photos. So here goes. Dami ng natambak sa camera ko. It's screaming delete them! hehe..

Since I am home, eto, watching One More Chance, yet again. It's been playing the whole day. Haha! Adik! Dami ko pang dvd na kailangan panoorin! Jologs lang talaga ako and I want to watch Pinoy Drama Movies.. (excuses!!!)

Feels good to be home for the whole day though. I was also able to get rid of the trash I had in my car. It's in dire need of vacuuming but what the heck.. Tinatamad ako! It's been a long time since I had the chance to just stay home and be lazy. I need a break!

My friend Jade is coming over on March anyway. I decided to take some days off. I need them! hehe..

I've just been short of time lately. Been staying OT and working extra days. Hopefully, it pays off soon! (fingers crossed!)

One More Chance

2008-01-28T06:08:00.000-08:00

What can I say? I am a true Filipino! hehe..

It's very rare that I cry because of a movie, but with this one, I just wasn't able to hold back. It's true, as a girl, I always thought that girls grieve more than guys do, but seeing Popoy in this movie, Gawd! Nakakaawa rin sila.

Pero syempre, I still feel for Bea. I know how it's like to feel suffocated because of a relationship. Sometimes, time and space are the only solution. Everybody needs to grow.

I am a fan. Hands down to Bea and John Lloyd! They took themselves to the next level. This is true drama at it's best. This is the first movie to start with an end of a relationship. They were able to depict the challenges of moving on which all of us never bother to think about when we start a relationship. Haaay. Mahirap!!! With this movie though, sobrang ramdam mo yung sakit. Ouch!

Anyway, I'm home today. Called in sick coz of an effin' migraine. Tax season is here so yeah, migraines are here again! Boohoo!

Upside: I'm home to do laundry and clean up my room.. And watch One More Chance, one more time..

Untitled

2008-01-27T13:48:00.000-08:00

Due to the laziness to think, and the incapacity to even complile my thoughts at this moment, this is the best I can come up with for the title.

I'm just a little anxious I guess. Malapit na yung hinihintay ko..

Anyway, tax season is here. It's already starting to take it's toll but I will be fine. I've been in the office most of the week even though Monday was a holiday. It's all worth the OT anyway. Plus kakailanganin ko na kumita!!! hehe..

I've been so busy lately with other things as well.. All will be revealed in due time. I don't want to jinx it so.. Sorry!

Haaay.. Can't think of anything else right now. Sa uulitin!

So close..

2008-01-18T15:00:00.000-08:00

Malapit na.. I'm almost there.. Another dream waiting to be fulfilled..

It's all in God's hands now.. I am here to pray..

Star

2008-01-04T17:16:00.000-08:00

I've been through a lot in my life. And I know that there is still a lot ahead of me. I am not even half way through. But I feel like I am still not at that point where I am an arm's reach away from my dreams. It feels more like a mile away. I'm still in doubt. I'm still unsure of what I really want out of my life. I know where I want to be but at this point, I do not know which path to take. At times, I need someone to guide me. But I found out that the best lessons to learn are learned the hard way.

I've hurt. I've suffered. But it still feels like it's not enough. I don't know where to go. And I don't know what to do. But as far as I know, I am getting there. Wherever that is.

I miss home. I miss everything about it. I keep telling myself that I have accepted the fact that the US is my new home. But it's still so hard to teach my heart to learn, that this is where I belong now. And this is where I will be able to achieve my goals.

I want a lot out of life. And I am so afraid to make choices. When I was younger, I was so eager to get to this age and be on my own. But now that I am an arm's length away, I am just so scared. Although I understand that trying is the only way to know for sure, I do not know whether I am ready for the consequences of my decisions.

I have yet to figure out who I am and what I want to be. It's sad coz I'm already 24. Yet, I'm still faced with the same dilemma I had, 8 years ago - when I first applied for college.

I am not sure if I've already found happiness. Or is happiness simply being content of where life leads you? I feel like I don't want to settle for anything but the best but right now, I do not even know what is best for me. I continue to strive and work hard. But I lose my focus too often that I succumb to temptations. I just realized, all of life can never be planned. Life is indeed full of surprises.

My heart is just confused. Am I happy? Where is home? Am I ready? Why am I scared? What the heck am I afraid of anyway? Darn it! I have so many questions still left unanswered. All my life, I'm so used to planning things that now that I am not in control, I feel like I'm not going anywhere. I am back to square one. I'm still lost.

The hardest question to answer for me right now, where will I find the answers?

I only have one thing left. I have my faith. I believe that life has something good in store for me. That as long as I do not cause any harm and I do my best, everything will be just fine. I, too, will shine...

'08

2008-01-02T16:31:00.000-08:00

I wanted to come clean this year. I do not believe in New Year Resolutions coz I know I won't be able to keep them. I have a lot in store this year. Hopefully, my life is going to be totally different once this year ends. I can't wait.

We've been so busy at work, and thankfully, OT this Saturday was cancelled. I really was not looking forward to sitting in front of a computer the whole day. At least I'll be able to attend my officemate's son's first birthday.

My back and shoulders have been hurting like crazy since the holiday season began. I've been so stressed out that I literally stayed in my PJ's the whole of Christmas day. It was not at all close to what I did New Year's. I was out and about. Helen treated, me, Matthew and AJ to Continental Buffet and my parents to Hoa Viet. Haaay. Sarap kumain! hehehe.

We also passed by Best Buy. I finally was able to try out Rockband! I love the drums. I wish they would make one for the Wii!

My parents just got me a new GPS system for the Rav of my life. Woohoo!!! Finally. The best Xmas present ever! We ordered it online and hopefully, I will be getting it on Monday! Excited na ko! Low EQ attack!!! Waaaah!

I was also finally able to find a Smallville calendar! Ang saya!

Hopefully, this will be another good year. Thank you God for all the blessings. Sana wag po kayo magsawa sa akin. Even though I can be a pain in the butt at times. I try. But I will try to try harder. hehe.

We bought a lechon for New Year! Grabe, ang tagal ko na di nakakakain ng masarap na lechon. I miss my lola's sarsa but what we had came close. The "balat" is still the best! hehe. I think my cholesterol just trippled New Year's Eve. I was bad. But it was oh so good!

Waaah! I'm just hyper I guess. Sana lang next year, kasama ko na buong family ko. That would be the best present that life will give me. A Christmas day na magkakasama kaming lahat. I'm dreaming the impossible, pero I believe. In due time..

It's been another year. I'm happy with what I have achieved last year. I got promoted the first month, moved to another team, went back home to see my brother's wedding, haay. I've had my shares of blessings talaga. Thank you. Thank you po. Looking forward to what this new year will bring!

Happy New Year!!!

Reset, Start

2007-12-29T01:24:00.000-08:00

Anybody who plays video games, know that these two buttons can lead you to exit the game or to restart. It just makes me wonder if that is where the word restart came from.

Anyway, I am just wondering on what the new year will bring. Maybe I am just excited about the new possibilities that may occur.

Haaay. New year = new start nga ba? How can you start of with a clear plate? There are moments in life when I just do not think that it's possible. But I guess, everything is possible with God. I just need to strengthen my faith a little bit more.

Tulog na nga ako ulit..

Blabs

2007-12-14T18:17:00.000-08:00

Finally, it's Friday!

Although I was just off yesterday, I could not wait for this day. I'm not really looking forward going to work.

I just confirmed this week that I will be moving to a new team. It's our Special Products Group. We'll see what happens. I can't wait to train again. And pretty soon, study again for another licensure exam.

I'm thinking about moving out. But I have to rethink over and over just to be sure that I'll be fine. I really do not want to risk my future, nor jeopardize my credit history. Haay.

Sana tumama ako sa lotto. I'm not asking for much. Pangdown lang. hehehe..

Got a lot of new dvds this last month. Kahit na wala pa akong napapanood ni isa. No time. Year end so we're so busy at work.

Not sure if I want to get a haircut. My hair is growing long and I know it'll make my Lola happy if I keep it this way. Not sure though. It takes me at least half an hour to iron it in the morning.

Got most of my Xmas shopping done. I just need to wrap most of them which I will probably be doing on Sunday. Bukas? It's a fun day for me. Except for the part where I have to do the payroll, but mostly, easy day. Got two parties to go to though.

Busy bee. Another full week for me this coming week. Can't wait for Xmas na. Another day off! hehe..

Disguise

2007-12-07T17:27:00.000-08:00

Although a lot of people see me as a really jolly and friendly person, I also have my weaknesses. I can't help but think sometimes how hard life has been to me and my family. My Kuya and I had to grow up in a really early age and face the realities that life has in stall for us. Bit by bit, it dawned on us that life is not easy.

It's been a blessing in disguise though. With all the struggles and challenges that we have faced, we've learned how to be strong. Behind all the whines and frustrations, I know, I can handle it. If not, I'd be crazy by now.

The greatest blessing that life has given me, is my family. My Lola, Papa, Mama, Tita Lot, Tito Mar, Tito Louie, Kuya, Matthew, Kiko and Kitkat. Thanks for everything. We may have those times that we do not agree, but behind it all, we know, we are there for one another, through thick and thin.

I've made mistakes in my life I am not proud of. But I learned. Life thought me a lot of lessons the hard way, and this is how I found out, how my family will never back out on me. I may have caused a lot of disappointments, but in the end, I know I've made up for them.

Life has taught me many things, but without my family, my Kuya and I would have never made it. I could be a drug addict by now. My Kuya, who knows. But look at us, despite of the obstacles, here we are. I know that a lot of people thought that we will just become 2nd class citizens after all that happened. But we have proved them wrong. My Kuya is now a resident doctor in one of the best hospitals in the Philippines. And here I am, with a job one of the best performing mutual fund company in the US..

I wish in some ways, I have made everybody who cared, proud. Your efforts did not go to waste. And for everything, thank you.

I now know that life will always have its moments. It's up to you to make the moments worth it. Life, now, will not have obstacles, but challenges, not problems, but opportunities. A lot of sacrifices were made so that I can be here, and I promise, I will make myself worthy of it all.

Cold

2007-12-03T16:18:00.000-08:00

I love winter. Although it's been in the 30's over here, I don't mind. It's a lot better than the heat. I can cover myself up when it's cold but I can never strip enough clothes off to cool me down.

Christmas is just around the corner. In 22 days, I know I will be more homesick. But like before, I have to get used to this. I don't think I'll be ever back in the Philippines around this season. Especially considering the fare at this time of year. It's freakin' double of what I paid when I went back.

I've been so busy at work lately. I'll even be working this Saturday just for the extra money. I need it. If I am going to start working on my future, I will be needing every penny. I really want to have my own life. After all, nobody is getting any younger.

I have a mission to fulfill as well. I will post it once I am able to accomplish it. I am doing something for myself, and this time, there is no turning back. I want this, more than anything right now.

The Wii is certainly a big help with the indoor exercise. Got hooked on Mario and Sonic in the Olympics. And man, it can really make you sweat. Especially those marathons! But the Wii is more than just for physical games, I also got the Big Brain Academy: Wii Degree. It's a different type of fun. If you like answering IQ tests then this is your game. I love it!

Been wanting to do something for fun lately and I'm still not sure what. I want to take a class but I'm not sure which one yet at this time. I have too many options in mind and I really want to narrow it down and think about which one will really make me happy. I'm just bored I guess. Too much work and no play makes me grouchy. I feel like I'm not living a life. It's all work. Oh well.. Life's cold sometimes..

Bz

2007-11-30T18:01:00.000-08:00

I've been so busy the last few weeks I haven't had time to post..

One of the original residents of the home passed away. We always considered Jim a part of the family. He passed away on the 20th of November. We knew it was coming but we didn't think it was that soon. I will surely miss everything, from the jokes, to the spelling bee, to eating a banana. I will forever cherish the memories. Bye my friend.

Haay. Life is really full of surprises. You just have to be ready for it. Di mo napapansin, bigla na lang may bagong darating. But you have to stick to the choice you made. Ang hirap tumanda. I'm still facing crossroads until now.

I would really have to figure it out myself. At this point, no one can help me.

I have a lot of changes planned. Lalo na para sa sarili ko. I've taken this as a wake up call.

I have been so distracted I forgot that the best things in life are free. I guess I just need a little bit of time.

crossroads

2007-11-19T09:42:00.000-08:00

I am already 24. But what have I achieved so far? My co-workers and mentors told me, that for my age, being in the same position as they are, I should be proud. Most of them have been with the company for at least 10 years, but here I am, a newbie, holding the same position.

But more than just my job, I haven't really done much with my life. I've been working pretty much the whole time I have been here in the US. I wish I can do more. Sometimes, I just feel bored. I guess I am still looking for my passion. Up until now, I still do not know what I want to do with my life. If this is really what I want. I know my abilities, and with effort, I know I can be successful. But do I really see myself doing this my whole life? Just office work? I want to look forward going to work everyday and enjoy what I actually do. I have no complaints about my job but I would prefer something that will excite my senses and stimulate my mind more.

But then again, maybe I am just yearning for affirmation; knowing that I am actually good at what I do. Hmmm. I wonder. If I had my own place, would I still feel this way? Maybe I just need to find a way to direct all this passion to something productive.

Ang hirap din tumanda. Before you can even decide, ang daming kailangan isipin. Getting older means more responsibilities.

I guess, just until now, I have not found the purpose of my life. I knoe that everything has a purpose. And things will happen if they are meant to be. But I know that I am not meant to be unproductive. There must be something I can do. I just have to figure it out.

Off

2007-11-15T11:15:00.000-08:00

Finally, a day off. Although I had to run errands and complete the payroll for the care home today, I still got some rest. I needed the sleep badly since I've been tired this whole week. Hopefully, next week is going to be a bit slow since it's Thanksgiving week. Haaay..

I got a new Wii game last week which I ended up selling anyway coz I didn't have the patience to play. But I got another one to replace it. I have a total of 5 discs now. I love my Wii! I highly recommend these games to make use of the motion sensors of the system: Wii Sports, Wii Play, Cooking Mama: Cook Off, Mario Party 8 and my newest, Mario and Sonic at the Olympic Games. The one I sold is Hooked: Real Motion Fishing. It was just too boring. What can I say, low eq is not compatible with the game. I do not have the patience to wait for the fish. Hehe..

I also downloaded the original version of the Super Mario Brothers and Galaga. I love the old school family computer games. Generation ko kasi. Nintendo is still working on the virtual console version of the Super Mario 3. I can't wait to get that one!

I was told that real estate will be slow next year so it's going to be a buyer's market. My friend and I are checking out new houses to see if we can actually afford the mortgage. It's just sad, coz we make more than the average and yet, getting a decent house is still going to be tough. Man! Grabe talaga ang inflation.

I'm still debating about going out to dinner tonight. Nakakatamad.

I was too impulsive today and I ended up buying the first 5 seasons of Smallville! Waaaah! Addict kasi.. I already own the last season.. Pero being O.C. I ended up buying the first 5.. I am trying to save but the thanksgiving sale is not helping me at all!!!

Malapit na naman ang Christmas. Haay. Wish I can be back home.. Nakakamiss lang ang pasko dun..

Sana off ko na rin lang tomorrow.. Haaaay..

Awake

2007-11-02T19:56:00.000-07:00

It's almost midnight. And by the look of things, I am not going to be asleep any time soon. It's bad since I was able to leave work at 4:30 which is earlier than usual. I went to Walmart to catch up on some dvd shopping and then had dinner at Chevy's. It's totally not my preference. If it was me, I would have chosen Ichi Maki. hehe.

Since I got home about 8pm. Had a lot of stuff to do with my mom. We finished about 10pm and I was finally able to get a hold of my Wii. Got a new game again yesterday: Hooked: Real Motion Fishing. I sucked at first but I'm getting the hang of it. I only had the energy to play for an hour. Nakakangawit din ah. Finally making some progress compared to yesterday. Kung ang huli ko ang pagkain ko, I will starve to death! haha. Not to mention I prefer meat over fish.

I'm still wide awake since I lay down at about 11pm. Already checked my friendster so here I am, posting another blog entry. I also pulled the latest episode of Ysabella from the net. Was too busy to see it on TV. What can I say? I am a Juday fan! haha!

Nothing else is new at this time. Bored lang siguro ako. Oh well. Hopefully, I'll be asleep soon. Wala na rin magandang show eh. Boohoo! Friday night.. kahit sa cable wala. Ano pa kaya pwede kong gawin while I'm not yet sleepy?

Gain/Loss

2007-10-30T05:30:00.000-07:00

This sounds like the worksheet I use at work for doing trade adjustments.

I guess sometimes, things happen that you don't expect at all. After all the pains and sacrifices, it's that one moment, that makes it all worth it. It's what makes you say, "Finally!" - the gain after all those losses.

On the other hand, being sick lost me 5 pounds. haha! At least something good came out of this.

I'm still home, sick. Haay. Good thing that it's a viral infection and not anything else. Doc said I will be feeling lousy for another week but I will be fine in time. I'm bored.

I Live for Popsicles

2007-10-28T08:16:00.000-07:00

Since I've gotten sick last Wednesday, my birthday, here I am having popsicles as much as I can.

I went to the doctor last Thursday and I found out that I have an ear infection and tonsilitis. I've never had this before and unfortunately, my ears hurt. I never thought it would hurt this much. It's like somebody pours alcohol in a deep and open cut. My gawd!

Only popsicles or anything cold relieves me from this pain. Pray for me.. Waaah!

24

2007-10-25T03:38:00.000-07:00

I am now officially 24.. =)

But here I am, at home, sick to my bones.. Dunno where I've been getting all this bacteria but it seems like they like my body a lot coz they do stick..

Anyway, got two cakes yesterday. One from my ninong and one from my old team. Both of them tiramisus. hehe. Sarap kasi. They came from the same bakery pa. haha.

Had an awesome dinner with my family and my best friend Helen. Got some food from one of our fave restos, Hoi Cin.

Going to the doc's office today to get my lungs checked up again. Haay. Ewan.

Early Birthday Presents

2007-10-14T17:04:00.000-07:00

My Havaianas from my Tita Lot in the Philippines..

My Nintendo Wii from myself.. haha! Got the game I've been wanting.. Cooking Mama: Cook Off!!! Love the game. Although the audio can be annoying at times but the game is fun!

Got my new Nike ID shoes. All customized for myself. I'm vain and I know it. Haha!

I'm going to be posting the pics in the photos section.

Sorry for the late updates though. Multiply is now officially blocked at work.. =)

Truth Or Consequence?

2007-09-28T18:02:00.000-07:00

Right now, this is more than a game to me. But thinking about it, truth always comes with consequences. So why choose truth?

When I went back to the Philippines for my vacation, I had to deal with some part of my past which I never thought would come back at me. Well, it did.

I thought about all the possible consequences and I finally made up my mind. I had to come clean. I did not want to bring the burden of hiding something that can affect somebody else's life. At least I told everything I know.

At least it's over. I'm just thankful that I was able to tell the truth. What happened after is something beyond my control. Everybody has to make choices. It's always easy to say what the best option is, but the best does not always makes us happy.

Most of the time, we learn better the hard way. I always believed that experience is the best teacher. Now, I finally got a sense of validation. Time has come.

People come and go. But true friends remain. And they understand. We all have to grow up at some point. My time is now.

Wii

2007-09-27T18:32:00.000-07:00

I just got a new Nintendo Wii last Sunday. Talk about impulse. I was going to get one at 9pm Saturday night. I even dragged Helen out to drive with me so we can get one.

We went to 2 Targets, Gamestop, Kmart and Walmart and they were all out of stock. I thought I was never going to find one. Well, I literally, begged my mom to take me to Costco right after the Church Service and found some. There were only 2 left. So I grabbed one! =)

It was a bundle. I don't think it was a great bundle. But it's good enough. It cost me a whopping $350!!! I got 2 of the controllers and a nunchuck controller as well as the Wii Sports and the Mario Party 8. As long as I got it, I am happy! hehe.

I've been playing the last few days, and what can I say, I am a great golfer and tennis player. But I suck big time with baseball. haha!

More updates to come..

Sport

2007-09-21T16:36:00.000-07:00

I was bugging Helen last night to enroll ourselves in a class or a sport perhaps. I can't think of anything that I really have passion for that will have a lot of physical activities. We were thinking of outdoor activities like rollerblading and biking but they are not such good ideas due to the weather. It's almost fall so it's starting to get cold here in Sac.

My real sport is pool. I used to be really good at it til I stopped playing. No practice has taken its toll and I kind of suck now. hehe. I'm looking into playing a little bit more soon. The problem is I have nobody to play with. Helen said she's hopeless so no luck with that.

I told her we can go bowling. Although I know in my heart that bowling does not like me, maybe, just maybe, with enough practice I can get better at it. haha!

Nag-iisip pa ko ng sport. The ones I really want, I suck with them so iba na lang. Haaay.

Home

2007-09-21T05:44:00.000-07:00

I never thought I can be homesick again but here I am, in my room, bored and wishing I was still back in the Philippines. All along I thought that I already have my heart settled here, iba pa rin pala when you're in the place where you grew up. I miss the Philippines.

This may just be an effect of being home, sick to my bones, in bed the whole day with nothing to do. I am hoping that this goes away as soon as I get better and then eventually busy with work. I haven't reported back to work since I got back. I am so broke! hehe.

I loved everyday of my vacation. Every minute, every moment was so worth it. From seeing my friends and family to just staying home. The ambiance is just totally different. Life back there feels just so mellow. The exact opposite of the fast-paced environment that I live in.

I know a good future awaits me here. I would have to re-learn to accept that US is my home now. It's not easy leaving everything you know and facing an entirely new world. I am just thankful that I have some of the people I love here too. It helps a great deal. I wish I had my real friends around too.

As for now, I've got to rest. I need to regain my strength and energy to go back to work, to live my life again and stop dwelling on my past. I shall be back to my normal jolly self in a few days. I just needed a jump start.

Back at home

2007-09-16T14:33:00.000-07:00

My vacation is already over. I'm back home now.

Super saya nung time ko sa Pinas. I missed my kuya, lola, tita and tito, dad, bro and sis so much. It feels so nice to be able to see them again. It's been 2 and a half years.

I might not be able to make it to work today. I must have caught a bug or something, but I have been feeling like cr*p the past few days; not to mention the first time I ever got a jet lag. I usually do not have problems, so I am actually surprised that I have one now.

Been in bed the whole day today. I'm burning with fever this morning and my tonsils are badly swollen. Not good at all.

Will post about the vacation soon. I'm going back to bed now to sleep again. =)

Post Straight from Pinas!

2007-09-04T21:29:00.000-07:00

Haay. I'm finally able to get a hold of a pc dito sa pinas. Thanks to the many internet cafes na nakakalat all over the city.

I'm here sa Greenhills shopping center. Haay. Super dami ko na nagawa since I got here but I don't have much time to post. Sa next post ko na lang pagbalik ko ng US, which is in a week. Hay. I surely am enjoying my vacation. Everything except for the heat.

Super ganda and solemn ng wedding ni Kuya and Ate Mitchie. Eto yung site for the pre-nup photo shoot nila. Ang ganda nung wedding package that they got, although it cost an arm and a leg, sulit naman. Every second. Muntik pa ko, kasi nag-brown out right before we started. Nakapila na lahat and all to walk down the aisle pero biglang namatay lahat ng aircon. It's a good thing that Fernwood Garden's generators were ready, kundi natunaw na make up ko.

I survived the morning with 3 inch heels and my pink gown. Whew! Oh well. At least tapos na. Now I'm faced with the continuous challenge of surviving the heat. Buti na lang lahat ng mga pinuntahan kong mga bahay eh may aircon, at least sleeping at night is not a problem.

Currently staying at Garden Heights. Pero hanggang Sept 10 lang. Tapos uwi na sa Pampanga. Grabe. It feels so surreal to be here. Ang dami ng nagbago. I will post pics soon.

Here is the site for the pre-nup pics:

http://teambigwaveinc.blogspot.com/2007/08/first-time-to-la-la-la-la-mesa-dam.html

Enjoy as much as I did. Byers for now!

Isang tulog na lang..

2007-08-21T04:45:00.000-07:00

Remember that song?

"Isang tulog na lang, Jollibee na naman. Ang araw lulubog, bukas mabubusog. Sa Chickenjoy Manok, at Yumburger bilog. We love you Sabado, pati na rin Linggo, Hintay ka lang Jollibee anjan na ko, panlasang Pilipino, at home sa Jollibee!"

Haha. Wala lang. Para ma-last song syndrome kayo. I so remember this commercial.

Anyway, isang tulog na lang, I'll be on my flight back to the Philippines. Just watch out for pics! Especially since I just got a new camera yesterday. Talk about impulse! Ang bulky kasi ng camera ko, so eto. I was looking into getting the Olympus one pero medyo mabagal yung shutter so I went with the Sony. It's an average type of camera. Basta mas manipis at mas magaan dun sa isa, ok na ko.

I got it a 2Gig Memory Stick na rin. Just in case. I may not be able to access a pc back in the Philippines so just in case. This should be enough.

I'm halfway done with packing my stuff dito sa office. Just the stuff I have on my desk. All else, ok na. Haaay.

Got some sleep last night. Addicted na ko sa Nyquil. I can't sleep if I don't take any. I'm planning on taking a bottle with me na rin, just in case.

I'm not going to be able to post here in a while. Next month na lang. Ciao!

Ocho Facts

2007-08-20T10:28:00.000-07:00

8 Random Facts About Me

1 - I was born 11.5 pounds and 22 inches. Yep! I looked like I was a year old when I popped out of my mom's tummy.

2 - I do not eat vegetables unless I really really really have to. I love meat. Chicken, pork, beef, turkey, lamb. I don't feel full kung walang meat.

3 - I had braces for a total of 8 years sa buhay ko. Almost 1/3 of my life. This was from 2,d year to 3rd year high school and from 2nd year college until 2 years after graduation. Pero pasaway ako, nakalunok na ko ng brackets sa tigas ng ulo ko. hehe.

4 - I have really bad night vision. Doctor said it is hereditary pero alam ko, it's also from not eating veggies. haha!

5 - I love Lacoste. It's my all time favorite brand. I love the material of their shirts. Pawisin kasi ako so I love the fact na hindi dumidikit sa balat pag pawis. I own at least 20 pieces. Kahit pare-pareho kulay. =)

6 - I was sent to the Principal's Office in High School. I was bad. I skipped class the whole morning and came in after Lunch. I was caught kasi one of my classmates called sa bahay looking for me. Before you make any judgements, it was not that bad. I was actually finishing up on my baby thesis about Julius Caesar. Deadline kasi that day and I crammed. That was my fault. I was not suspended. Napagalitan lang.

7 - I carry a handkerchief/hanky/hankie wherever I go. It's kind of like my security blanket. I just cannot survive without it. Parang may kulang lagi and I am not comfortable pag wala. Kahit di ko ginagamit, just knowing that it's in my pocket, ok na ko.

8 - I am the youngest in my department ever. My department is supposed to be for more seasoned Senior Associates pero I was lucky to get a promotion skipping the Senior Level and just becoming a specialist altogether. I know that I can be good with what I do. I guess my boss's see my determination to grow.

Monday na naman..

2007-08-20T04:30:00.000-07:00

Here we go again. It's Monday. First workday of the week. I guess I should not complain considering it's only going to be a 2-day workweek for me.

It feels so surreal that in a couple of days, I will be on my flight back to Manila. And you guessed it right, I still haven't finished packing. I'm almost done shopping but I still need to stock up on my meds. I didn't think I needed a lot of stuff to survive. Grabe, kulang pa ata isang balikbayan box para lang sa mga gamit ko.

I'm planning on just getting new shoes back there at flip-flops na lang at 2 pairs of sneakers na lang dalhin ko. But I know how hard it is to find good shoes sa Pinas. Ang laki kasi ng paa ko eh. hehehe.

I probably won't be able to post anything for the mean time. I'm planning on buying a new camera tonight. Kasi yung akin, it was an old school na semi-SLR type of digicam. So bulky. I love it. The clarity and everything else works great. So wala akong reklamo. Kaso lang, medyo mabigat so nakakatamad dalhin. I want a thinner one. hehe. I'm still sticking to Olympus. Love 'ko talaga brand na 'to for cameras.

Tonight, I promise on finishing my shopping. Para matapos ko na rin pag-pack. I still need to do my laundry para malinis and maayos kwarto ko when I get back. Nakakastress. Ang daming kailangan gawin.

I know that it's going to be a busy day today. Pero ok na rin. Para mabilis matapos ang oras. At least hindi ko mapapansin. Sobrang antok ko pa naman.

I hardly slept last night. It was almost 1 AM when I fell asleep. Considering I have to wake up at 6 everyday now dahil may pasok na. Ayaw ko na ma-late. Not to mention that I am changing supervisors (involuntarily), pero ok na rin. At least I still have my job.

Too much whines for a Monday noh? I think I'm just tired and stressed. Although I had a good day yesterday, I surely miss my home. As the song goes.. I left my heart, in Sacramento nga lang yung akin. =)

Uh Oh..

2007-08-14T04:39:00.000-07:00

I wasn't very productive yesterday. I was a lazy butt and stayed in bed the whole day. Talk about katamaran. hehehe.

I forgot to mention, I burned my 2 fingers Saturday (eto katangahan lang!). I was in a hurry to go have the food ready for the luau that when I was trying to iron my hair, ayun. My left hand's middle finger and thumb have first degree burns. Ang sakit! Now the each have big blisters. I soaked my hand in ice the whole time during the luau kaya I'm not sure how the pictures ended up.

As of now, I'm back at work. Never ending phone calls with trades ulet. I'm getting the hang of it though. I'm loving my job and sana I get to grow with this company.

Regarding sa pag-uwi. I can't believe I'm just a week away. Parang ang bilis. Pero syempre, di pa rin ako tapos magshop and I haven't even started packing. Haaay.

I still have to work for a week. Miss ko na Pinas. I'm so close I can almost feel like I'm back there. Although I must say, mamimiss ko rin dito. Sabi nga ni Mama, it will be extra quiet and malinis sa bahay kasi wala kami ni Chi. hehe.

Here we go again..

2007-08-13T06:33:00.000-07:00

Guess what?!? I am home sick again. Bad trip. Hindi na ata talaga ako lulubayan ng sakit. Almost every week, I catch something. Haay.

My allergies are killing me right now. I dunno where I got this pero I was basically inside the house the whole day yesterday. I was good and rested. But still.

A little over a week from now, uwi na kami ni Matthew. Excited pero andun din yung worries na hindi na ko sanay sa Pinas. The US has been my home the past 2 and a half years. And it feels like leaving home all over again.

I'm planning on packing up at least one of my Balikbayan boxes today. Kahit man lang isang bagay na productive may magawa ako. I so don't want to be out sick anymore. I need to build my immune system.

Been trying to modify my multiply site. Para maiba naman. Found a theme and I decided to use their backgrounds. Medyo iba lang yung template nila so I had to manually modify.

Coughing like crazy right now. I have to get better soon at ayaw kong masira yung bakasyon ko. I still need to buy loads of stuff so I might need to leave the house later. Haay. Pagod na ko.

Fave Food Places

2007-08-09T06:19:00.000-07:00

1 - Cheesecake Factory - Do I need to say more? It's the desserts, talk about some rich cheesecakes.. Haaay..

2 - Ichi Maki - Loooooooove Japanese Food! The fresh fish and the sauces they make are the best. Their American River Roll and Spicy Sea Steak are definite must haves!

3 - Samurai Sushi - Chef's specials! Their rolls are not the best but their chef's special rolls are really good. It may cost you a little bit more but oftentimes, these are so much bigger and better than the regular one. Kaya nga special eh.. hehe..

4 - Chili's - Appetizers pa rin. Their Shanghai Chicken with the Wasabe Ranch is very flavorful. The dip just takes it to another level. Love it!

5 - Logan's - For those who are a fan of Baby Back Ribs, this is the place to be. They are cooked perfectly that they just come off the bone. The sauce has a sweet but tangy twist. Have them with the overloaded mashed potatoes and you're all good to go.

6 - Hoicin - If you love authentic Chinese Food, this is the best. From their pan fried noodles to their Deep Fried Squid, their food just has the best flavor. And it's not just your ordinary orange chicken, they have the freshest fish and lobster. Sarap!

7 - El Puerto Mex - It's a hole-in-the-wall type of place, but man, talk about authentic Mexican Food. Their Chili Relleno to their Tostadas, hmmm.. and it's really cheap.. Yum yum!

8 - Sunny Lee's - I only order one thing, Ginger Beef over Rice with extra ginger. Sarap ng sauce. It's refreshing kahit na rice siya and meat. If you're craving your dose of salt, eto na yun! hehe

9 - Costco Food Court - Talk about Cheap! Mababaw lang kaligayahan namin ng kapatid ko. We just love their Polish Sausage. Haay. $1.50 lang may kasama ng drinks yan. You can put onions, relish, ketchup and mustard. Solved na problema namin. Quick but nice fix. hehe.

10 - Lollicup - If you're craving some Pinoy streetfood, dito may squidballs. hehe. The sauce is nowhere near what you get off the streets pero ok na rin for a temporary substitute. At least squidball pa rin. =)

Most of the places where I eat are sit-down places. Ayaw ko ng fastfood. I know medyo magastos pero it's well worth it. At least real food ang kinakain mo. And I really don't like rushing when I eat.

These places are mostly found in Rancho Cordova, around my workplace.. Just wanted to share.. =)

Crazy but Beautiful

2007-08-08T06:12:00.000-07:00

Haha.. I know.. Parang movie title..

It's just the weather's been really nice this week. We're ranging from the low 80's during the day to low 50's at night. Sarap na matulog. I know this isn't going to help me lalo na sa paguwi ko. The humidity will kill me.

Pero last week was really crazy. We were hitting the hundreds and grabe, masakit sa balat. Especially since it wasn't humid, direcho talaga sa balat mo yung init. Ouch!

Nakakatamad din dito sa work. Lalo na at alam kong bakasyon ako for almost a month. Kahit na babalik ako agad dito, just the thought of not having to go back to work, ang sarap! I won't need to wake up 6:15 anymore.. haha..

I would have to pack up all my work stuff before I go anyway. The department I'm in is changing teams. I'm still hoping to stay with the same sup. Love her sobra! No micromanagement whatsoever. She treats us all like adults, although ako yung youngest sa department so minsan, para lahat silang mga mommies to me.

I love my team. Iba kasi yung saya namin dito. We just sometimes throw paperclips at each other's desks para manggulat! haha..

Haaay. Magulo ang mundo. Isa lang ang alam ko.. Cute ako!! bwahaha.. wala lang.. trip lang po.. pagbigyan nyo na.. =)

random thoughts

2007-08-07T09:54:00.000-07:00

2 weeks na lang..

Just got back from lunch sa McDo. My ever fave Fish Filet pa rin.. Wala na kasi maisip kainin, and with my half hour lunch, I have to settle with fast food. I know it's not healthy but with the pace this world is moving, you would have to at least try to move as fast as it does.

Pero bakit pag nasa work, like right now, a stinkin' half an hour can go by so slow. Gusto ko na umuwi at matulog. I've just been lacking sleep this past days. Kaya eto, mukha akong bangag.

I felt an urge yesterday to smoke. Haaay. It's been a while. Wow! It's been a year na rin pala since I last smoked. Grabe. hehe.. I am orally fixated and I must say, yosi really calms me down. Pero if I want to live longer, I know I have to keep it up.

Showing na Rush Hour 3 sa Friday. But with the Luau we're holding this Saturday, I won't have time to see it. Di na rin ako makakanood ng sine sa 18, I have to pack. My luggage is all over the guest room right now. Di ko pa rin nabababa yung maleta ko para mastart ko na yung pag-pack. Haaay.

I have so much in my mind kaya ang dali rin uminit ng ulo ko. Kainis.

I just bought another flat hair iron yesterday. I went to Ulta, kasi sale. hehe. I only paid $17 and change, considering it was originally $74.99 plus tax, sobrang ok na yun.

I still need to transfer the files in my Nokia 6600 pa pala. Di ko alam if I'm selling that phone or not. Along with the Nokia 7610 just laying on top of my dresser. Andun lang kasi.

Can't wait na rin not to work for a few weeks. Although I know that I will be busy. Pero ok na rin. At least rest from all this. Hopefully, pagbalik ko, finalized na yung training ko for the Legal class and for my Series 63 exam. Nakakabore when there is nothing to look forward to.

Got 10 Lacoste Shirts a few weeks ago. Lacoste pa rin ang favorite brand ko with shirts. I love them. They last a couple of years kahit na halos linggo linggo eh suot ko. They are really comfy. Kahit na I got the same colors, ok lang. I just love the shirts. hehe..

I'm thinking of buying another pair of Nike's soon. My shox are getting worn out. Almost 2 years ko na rin silang gamit. And I love them. I customized them sa Nike ID. I'm really wanting to customize another pair for my bday. I found one I really want, it's $150 plus tax and shipping and handling.. So about $180.. Sh*t.. But man, I love them.

I never got over my shirts and sneakers outfit. Forever na lang yata na ganito ang mga suot ko. haha. Comfy. I don't really follow trends. I just want to be comfortable. At least they never go out of style.

My boss has been bugging me to wear a skirt at least once. Or kahit dress up lang. One time, maybe if I'm in the mood. haha..

Haay. Got to go back to work. Ang daldal ko. Next time ulet. hehe..

Bad Trip

2007-08-02T16:41:00.000-07:00

Why is it that when you try your hardest to be good, tapos lagi ka na lang pinagdududahan?? Nakakasawang gawin lahat ng tama pero ang tingin pa rin sa yo, masama. Why exert all that effort just to go to waste?? Sinasayang ko lang ang pagod ko! It's so frustrating.

I may not be the daughter you want, pero di ako masamang tao. Alam ko lahat ng sakripisyo niyo, pero para isumbat lahat yan sa kin! Ayoko na!

Procrastinating

2007-08-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

Here I go again. I'm being bad and I know it. Katamad kasi sa office. I was out sick so eto, still not in the best condition to work, but I really did not want to jeopardize my Pinas Vacation so I'm here.

Our firewall is down dito sa work. That's why I get to post and I get to check my friendster account every now and then.

Di pa ko tapos magpack. Puro pasalubongs pa lang. I haven't listed the things I need to bring din. I know I'm excited pero takot din ako sa paguwi. Dami kailangan gawin and I know na pagod din sobra.

On the other hand, seeing all the people I've been missing, yun ang masarap. Kainis lang minsan, gusto mo silang makita pero walang bukang bibig kundi ... Kakafrustrate lang. Oh well, iba talaga ang Pinoy.

Sobra kasi ang excitement eh..

2007-08-01T06:36:00.000-07:00

Got sick last Saturday. I had a really bad stomach flu. Was in bed until Tuesday trying to recuperate. I'm now feeling a little bit better.

Been drinking so much gatorade just so I'm sure I don't get dehydrated. Haay. 3 weeks na lang..

A month long wait..

2007-07-27T06:16:00.000-07:00

Isang buwan pa..I'm still not done with my shopping.. Going broke pero ok na rin..

I have my trip almost all planned out. Transpo na lang problema ko. I'm not sure if I'm comfortable riding cabs back sa Pinas. After driving for 2 and a half years, I can't help but worry. With all the news that I see sa TFC, can you blame me? Haay.

Will be staying at my bro's new condo sa Makati. Change of plans kasi ayaw ng parents ko magisa ako.. Talk about paranoid noh? Tanda ko na eh.. hehe..

Can't wait to have Isaw and Fishballs!

Haaay. Ang tagal pa ng isang buwan!!

eksayted na ako!

2007-07-20T17:23:00.000-07:00

I'm not really good with titles. I apologize to whoever is reading this blog.

Anyway, it's just a little over a month and I will be back in the Philippines. Miss ko na ang Pinas. Haaay.

Wala lang. I don't feel like writing anything at this time. My team was out almost this whole week. Haaay. Sobrang pagod.

I've just been shopping this whole week for my inaanaks. God, the credit card bills are soaring again. Kainis. I've been good the start of the year but my ever loving brother wants me home. So eto.

Just that for now. Sa susunod na post na lang ulet.

Can't Sleep

2007-07-07T20:01:00.000-07:00

It's almost midnight. The heat is unbearable. Even with the A/C on, it just isn't enough. I can't wait for fall.

I don't know what I will be able to come up with in this entry. Brain isn't really functioning very well. Too tired from work. My team that originally had 7 people is now down to 3. But worse will come soon as one of us will be on leave. This'll feel like tax season all over again.

Just bought a new Nokia N75 a month ago. Love it! Not much into flip phones but this'll do for now. My beloved Nokia 6600 is getting too old. It's already starting to malfunction. I bought a Nokia 7610 not too long ago but I never really used it. It's still sitting on my shelf all covered in dust.

I'm very much excited to go back to the Philippines. Got almost all the pasalubongs. Just a few more and my boxes will be full! Almost all my days are already booked and I am just waiting for confirms from my other sets of friends.

I rearranged my room a couple of months back. Still haven't had time to take the pictures from my digicam. Kakatamad.

Got my fills done early this afternoon. They hurt like hell right now and I still have 4 sessions to go. I was really bad with brushing my teeth as a kid. And now I am suffering for it.

Washed my filthy car last weekend. I haven't been able to wash it in more or less, 6 months now. Been too busy with work and I only get one day off which I usually spend cleaning up and doing my laundry. So no more time. Thank God I'm given an extra day off once a month! I so need one soon!

I was finally able to convince my parents to get themselves new phones. They each got a new red Samsung Sync. Quad band, bluetooth and a 2 megapixel camera. Same features as my N75 but a lot cheaper. haha!!

What else?!?! hmm.. been addicted to Gordon Ramsay's Hell's Kitchen! He's a really good person but he's a monster in the kitchen. I would so hate to work under him. But I love him as a chef! Talk about quality!

Top Chef Season 3 is also up and running lately. Thanks to my beloved Archos, I get to see all of these shows even if I'm barely home.

Last word: Can't wait for Aug 24. I'd probably take a cup of nyquil on the plane ride back just so I can keep my cool. God I miss the Philippines!

Happy

2007-05-24T14:15:00.000-07:00

Passed my NASD Series 6!

Passed an online state exam as well.. Bonus.. Both passed on the same day!

9ers coming over on June 2 to 3.. Going to another SF trip.

H and I are going strong.. Can't wait to move out.. (fingers crossed)

Not doing very well with saving up for my trip to the Philippines.. But I'll make do..

I promised to get myself an hour of Swedish/Deep Tissue massage if I pass.. Expensive but I know it's going to be worth it..

Mom said as a reward for passing.. I get a new bed.. =)

Doing much better with work lately. I hope I can keep it up.

updates

2007-05-06T15:34:00.000-07:00

Vacation is going to be on August 22 to September 15 - 3 weeks in the Philippines!!!

Exam rescheduled - May 24, 2007.

Whinings

2007-05-03T16:39:00.000-07:00

I'm just plain bored.

I'm home with nothing to do. Nothing good on paperview. Nothing good on Starz.

Bought Casino Royale on ppv earlier. Too bored and too lazy to get up and choose a dvd.

Been out sick from work since yesterday. Damn. I hate this weather.

Stopped getting my shots. Didn't want to drive all the way downtown everyweek.

Wishing I have more money to spend. Or at least save for my trip back.

H going to Shanghai for a vac with her mom. Wishing I could be with her instead.

Brain is too lazy to do anything. Can't even figure out what I want for dinner.

Updated my laptop with a new MS Office, though I barely even use it.

Still haven't uploaded any of the pics I took for my website. A little too lazy.

Didn't win the auction for the coach messenger bag that I really wanted. It ended up amounting to almost $200 bucks. Which I cannot afford right now.

Broke even though I just got paid.

I need some cheese to go with these whines. There's just too much of them.

Cancelled

2007-04-24T09:55:00.001-07:00

Exam cancelled yet again..

Haaay..

Series 6

2007-04-19T13:57:00.000-07:00

I am going to be taking my Series 6 exam the 2nd week of May. The final date is yet to be verified. But I have 2 weeks to study starting on Tuesday.

Wish me luck! =)

Older

2007-04-18T09:17:00.000-07:00

"When it rains, it pours..."

Lately, I have found this saying to be so true with what's happening to me. There is just too much going on and sometimes I just don't feel like I can handle it.

I was up until midnight thinking of what I can do to improve my situation, but I realized there is nothing else I can do but wait and just keep my cool while doing so. Being worried, or sometimes even paranoid, have just made everything worse. Besides the fact, that I am usually grouchy, I end up going out and spending money shopping to release the stress.

I am trying to save up for my trip to the Philippines. I used to say, for my trip "home". But now I have come to realize that the US is my new home; that this is where I will be starting and building my future. I hope to have a house or even just an apartment of my own before I am 25.

I am 23 years old. Things are not going as I have planned them. I always thought that I would be settled with someone by the time I am 26. Well, I am just not ready yet I guess. I am still young. I have a lot of immaturities and insecurities that I still need to improve on. I need to learn to be patient and take my time doing so, otherwise, my future will not have a very strong foundation.

I've always thought that it was all about financial stability. There's a lot more to it than just that. I need to commit. And I know I will. I will get there. I have a strong support system that's keeping me focused. I want to be somebody. Somebody great. And I will be. I don't need to hurry. But I'm taking it slowly but surely this time.

Tentative Dates

2007-04-16T14:48:00.000-07:00

The tentative dates for my homecoming is on August 23 to September 8. I haven't decided on what airline to choose but I'm really excited. I haven't seen my family in 2 years.

The wedding is going to be at Fernwood Garden. It's on September 2. Wow! Can't believe that my bro is finally getting married. Tumatanda na kami!!!

Can't wait to eat fishballs and isaw though. I am dragging my bro to be my designated driver while I am there since I am not very good at driving a stick. Manila here I come!!! =)

XP

2007-04-10T14:08:00.000-07:00

Finally, my company has deployed the new PCs. We now have Windows XP, with a 1Gig processor along with 80Gigabytes worth of memory.

Systems are becoming a lesser pain now. Fun!!!

What's New?

2007-04-02T08:51:00.000-07:00

I've been learning a lot from my new position as an Investments Specialist. I will be taking my first licensure exam this month. I'm still waiting for my study materials and my 2 weeks of studying time to be scheduled but I am actually excited. My brain is really up to study lately. I think I'm just bored with work I guess.

In general, my life has been full of excitement the last month. Finally, someone I've long been waiting for is now mine. I know that it's really bad to compare but of everyone that I was with, she's the most mature. Life is so much easier. No more of the petty fights and arguments that just add up to the already very stressful life. We just enjoy each other's company without all the pressure. We both know where we want to go and we're going to help each other reach our goals. Finally, a real partner.

Mom finally let's me hang out every Saturday. It's nice to be out and about at night without having to worry about her getting mad at me when I get home. She's ok with me staying out late at night now. I don't blame her though. I didn't grow up with her so I know that she is just trying to protect me.

I've been out shopping too for the pasalubongs that I will be bringing when I go back. I think my 2 boxes won't be enough for my family and friends. I haven't seen my other sibs in 2 years and I know that they have grown a lot since then. Can't wait! Although I know that the heat will probably hurt me.

My H and I are also planning a weekend getaway to San Francisco. Gives me a reason to look forward to my future. I know that it's going to be a roller coaster ride. I'll hang on.

going back!!!

2007-04-02T08:43:00.000-07:00

It's official.. I am going back home on August!!!

Unsure of the details yet but it'll be a 2-week vacation!

Excited na ko!

Thank you

2007-03-13T16:32:00.000-07:00

Thank you for coming into my life.. I promise to make the risk well worth it.

Thank you for this chance.

Thank you for believing in me... in US...

Let time be our friend... Let's take our sweet time... We will get there...